Heartlander

As today is Sunday, and more often than not it's my laziest day of the week, I've decided to blog randomly today. I hate picking up calls on days like these because if I do, I would have to do some silly favor for someone. And I regret picking up the call haha. Ok that aside, I just came back from AMK Hub doing some heartland activity and buying things I dont necessarily need. I need to stop buying stupid things, as the things in my drawers are actually overloaded with stuffs I don't remember getting or using. Later I would have to clear most of it. And I'm dreading to do that. Sigggghhhh. I really should start saving. And I say that every month haha. But it never happens. Oh well money is meant to be spent anyway.

Anyways, as I was walking around alone (it's kinda nice to shop alone because I can get all the stupid things I want without anyone to stop me from getting it) I was kinda reminded of helmi. Everywhere I went, I thought of all the moments where we would joke about the uncles and aunties. Indian men and family. Like how he used to pull me out from all the accessories shop and telling me not to waste any more money. Telling me ive had enough already (how can they ever be enough, need to match with other clothings mah). Then I would always argue that this is what I work for and should deserve something nice. That will be when he will tell me I'm materialistic. Lol. And we would argue and joke about it. Like how he used to kiss me on my cheek whenever and wherever. Like how he tells me I smell nice even if I don't feel I do. Like how he would roll his eyes when I tell him I feel like eating something soupy. Like how he says I'm troublesome every time and that he doesn't know why he loves me so. Like how we would walk home together. Those are the moments I cherish because he does not get to send me home all the time. And I can't complain. I would have to ask him to send me home. Because money was always an issue for him and I would tell him I can pay for everything even his bus fare just so he can send me home. But he would refuse. And I would be left taking the bus alone.

But I loved him. For all the efforts that he put in. For all the times I needed him.

I really hope he will find someone deserving like how I have found mine - officially.

;)