When night falls.

Its three in the morning, lying down on my bed after a good dinner and movie. Eyes are kinda heavy but probably I should share something before I sleep. I am thinking of you every second of the day; even when I shut my eyes. I miss you when you are away, I miss you even when I hold you tight in my arms. I love you. I love you with all my heart and I'm begging you with all of my might that you don't go breaking it.

I will always have my past with me, and they will remain in my heart forever. I love all the bittersweet memories that I carry, I love the fact that I was with helmi for the longest time. I still love him, deep in my heart I will always do. He is a great lover, friend and a great companion. The sleepovers, the unhealthy supper, the late night jokes, they mean so much to me and I promise I will never forget all that. Thank you for the sweetest of memories and I wish you well.

Now, I wanna create new beautiful memories with you. Let my past be the stepping stone for a better present and perhaps a greater future. I do not know what is in store for us and I wish I knew all the answers. I can either wait or bail or find someone who can promise me a future. Because as of now, you can't promise me anything and I won't want you to. Whenever you said "when the time comes", I would answer silently, with a question " what if it doesn't?"

Goodnight my love. I love you and perhaps that is all that matters.