Little Miss Sunshine

As sleepy and alone I am right now, I feel like I have to share my contentment and it's not fair that I only write when I am upset or being someone else. Haha. Had a good day today, its always fun at work. So many different people and with their peculiar behavior, it makes me smile silly every time I walk around the hotel. I guess I like the feeling of being liked so that's why its hard for me to get angry or raise my voice even when I'm annoyed. I would just suck it up, clench my fist and bite my teeth really hard. Haha or if there is a chance, i would shriek. You know that high pitched scream. Haha. Or i would go to the toilet, shake my head and punch the wall. Haha. I've never liked confrontations, I wont know what to say. Oh well.

Sometimes I laugh or talk to myself at work. Or sing while I walk to distribute papers. I'll smile at everyone and when they don't return it with a nod or a smile, I'll secretly curse them in my heart. Haha. Really, what is so hard about smiling? Not that i want your money what. Even when I don't feel like doing anything or get really sad, seeing people at work, the different races from different countries, the young and old, and I know that there is always someone out there who has seen worst days than me. The many hours of working hard to earn enough income for their family, or perhaps that lady who's laughing all the time (with whom I always enjoy talking to) is having some personal problems on her own. I won't know. Yet, they find happiness in all the sadness they might be going through. Everyone has their stories. Everyone has secrets.

There is always light at the end of the tunnel. We have got to have faith in ourselves and believe that there is a silver lining behind every dark cloud, look forward to the future and the surprises that are in store for us. 2012 is just a month away and I have plans to go on holidays, for a better year.

I am young, bubbly and sexy. And I always will be. Even if I'm old, wrinkled and fatter than I am now.
Because thats how I want to be. And that is how I am.

So there is nothing wrong in being happy all the time. Well, at least 90%. Heeeee. Still can't run away from having mood swings during my menstrual period. =)