On cloud nine.

I have always loved taking the bus home because you get to see many different happenings in the bus and also on the road. I get to entertain my thoughts and this is the only time I get to daydream. So many eventful things have taken place these past three months and it has been one hell of an emotional ride. I have been the happiest as well as have gone so low that I don't think I could have gone any lower than that. But the more I think about it, the more I realize that the reason I have been at the lowest point is because I made myself to be there. I can choose to be happy and be surrounded with wonderful friends and a loving family. I love to laugh, I love to see people I love happy. I love the energy of a happy surrounding and I hate to be sad.

Life is too short to be wondering about what ifs. We don't have all the time in the world to be scared. To be thinking of things that we do not have control of. I am not necessarily a nice person,I do bad things I'm not even proud of. But I don't regret it, I would probably regret it if I didn't kiss him on that night. It might have turned out differently, but would I then be happy? I probably would have missed the chance to get to know him. I would have not laughed as much and be as happy as I am right now. I would have not enjoyed work as much as I do now. I would have not be so excited to come to work and see the faces of my colleagues so early in the morning. The funny memories, the thousands of expressions we exchange, the cute little surprises, the dinners, the lunches and breakfasts we have together. The taxi rides, the journey in the train, the conversations we hold as we walk side by side. The silly games we play and the sarcastic remarks we throw at each other. The funny texts and images we send when we are apart. The movie nights, the car rides, and unfortunate incidents (losing an expensive car key and oh yes bought the wrong date for a movie). The chalet, the hotel stay. The dinner and dance. The walk to funan, to peninsula and the crossing of roads dangerously. The office nights and mornings. And all of these happened, to my surprise, in the past three months we are intimately together.

I want to be with him so much, so much so that I am not even thinking of being with anyone else, of being the perfect girlfriend or wife for anyone else besides him. I'll be giving everything that I have and probably so much more if we were to be together in the future. He tickles my heart like no one has ever done, and it beats faster every time that i see him. He probably wont know this but I will die for him. I will do whatever it takes to not see the little sadness in his eyes.

As I am reaching my destination now, I have not even shed a single tear. Hahaha. I have been smiling to myself throughout this journey and this has been the easiest post I have written so far. Because words flow like water. Like probably this was what I have been keeping to myself all along.