Coconut Trees.

When someone dies,only then is he or she remembered by people. Its really uncanny isn't it?
Michael Jackson died this morning,and people suddenly started playing his songs and give the most heartwarming tributes. What happened when he was alive?
Really,Humans are the most horrible horrible living creatures to grace this planet earth.

And me,I am starting a new job this Monday and why is that i am not overjoyed?
Is it not what i really wanted?
HA.
Again,not only humans are horrible,they make things complicated when things are really that simple.
I need some love to feel happy.
And maybe a cigarette to fill this small hunger pangs.

I am on a diet,mind you.:)

Prententious Saturday.

I pretend not to care,and I am funny that way.
Everyday is a struggle for me,and i pretend that its not there. I pretend that everything is stupid and ridiculous and uneccessary. I pretend that love and relationships are redundant,that you wont die without them. I pretend that my life is going to be better without any commitments.
Without anyone to restrict me.
I pretend that it doesnt matter,that no one ever takes me seriously. I pretend that things are going to get better,but are they?
I pretend that being unhappy is somthing weak,something you show just to grab attention.
I dont like taking naps in the afternoon now because I want to be tired and sleepy at night so I can pretend that I am not lonely. I pretend to be asleep while dreaming I am somewhere else.
I pretend to be this person that i am actually not,that i am actually wasn't.

The truth is i care. I really care. Alot.
But you know what,I am just going to keep pretending.
Just because its easier that way.