I really do not know what to do to forget things. I have tried to keep myself busy with my daily activities. Talked and laughed with friends but these unhappy emotions still do not want to go away.
How does anyone do it?
Should i meet and make new friends?
Go on random dates?
Do other interesting activities?
Stay away from everyone?
Pray?
I am really sad. I cant even face myself. After all, I am thought as a happy person, a person who shivers when listening to friends talking about mushy stuffs.
I am like that,but the irony of it, i wanna feel like that. I wanna feel that i am needed in someone's life,like i am loved. I wanna receive love notes, i wanna hear those lovely sincere words from someone.
I feel like i am betraying myself, i have no idea how i became like this.
I want to cry so bad,but i know i can't. So many reasons why i would have to hold my tears everytime.
I tell myself everyday to be strong, to look forward to finer things. Maybe this is how it was supposed to be.
I am embarassed,with myself. With friends i am surrounded with.
With you i am still holding on to.
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