I pretend not to care,and I am funny that way.
Everyday is a struggle for me,and i pretend that its not there. I pretend that everything is stupid and ridiculous and uneccessary. I pretend that love and relationships are redundant,that you wont die without them. I pretend that my life is going to be better without any commitments.
Without anyone to restrict me.
I pretend that it doesnt matter,that no one ever takes me seriously. I pretend that things are going to get better,but are they?
I pretend that being unhappy is somthing weak,something you show just to grab attention.
I dont like taking naps in the afternoon now because I want to be tired and sleepy at night so I can pretend that I am not lonely. I pretend to be asleep while dreaming I am somewhere else.
I pretend to be this person that i am actually not,that i am actually wasn't.
The truth is i care. I really care. Alot.
But you know what,I am just going to keep pretending.
Just because its easier that way.
1 comment:
i care too, i too pretend. we both have lose so much along the way, and to go back and pick up the pieces alone is dead scary. so take my hand amd hold it tight. i promise i will never ever let go.
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