Sudden flashbacks and thoughts and bittersweet memories have motivated me into writing this entry.About the love lost,gained,friendships shattered,renewed and found.
Before you know it,the year is coming to an end.
Fairytales, rainbow of seven colours,the light at the end of the tunnel.All of them have beginnings and happy endings.
But it is not done just yet.
There are things I have done this year that I regret.How one wishes that he or she could turn back the time and had taken a different path.I could whine and grimace and I know it is never going to change things,so therefore I only regret,I am not sorry.I was never and I am not.
People falter,I falter.I was lost in the moment and in that I learnt and found my way out.
I picked myself up after I fell but the wound is still there.Its invisible but dear oh dear ,you just never know its healing within.
I have lost some good friends but they say [when one door closes,the other opens].But for my case,[one door is slightly ajar,and the other is wide open].
I have not lost them completely but I have lost touch.Maybe I have lost myself.I got lost trying to find them.Or maybe I was hiding when they are looking for me.Maybe just maybe.
I remember them but sadly I think they dont.Maybe all these while I am finding excuses to blame myself but what if,in the end afterall,i am not to be blamed.
What if they are the ones who abandoned me?
You see,friendships to me are important.It is essential and needed.I do not have to have lots of friends but a few good ones would be really wonderful.
(continuation from yesterday)
And then I have nothing more to write.My inspiration has been sucked out by my acute boredom.The silence at crowne plaza plaza now has drained my thinking capacity.
To think that I am actually paid for this.
How fabulous.
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